Sunday, June 30, 2013

SUMMER!! 30 June 2013

 

 Yep...he's OUTTA here......
 Michael had an amazing time at Havasupi! And leaves for Seattle for a week today with Brittany:)
 Saw Rosie and LOVE HER STILL...looks like she is loving her cruise line job.
 This was so great of the Beans I had to post it...
Its  been a sweet week. Work is crazy good...on ALL fronts. Dad was in Mexico. It has been super HOT and the POOL has been FANTASTIC...LOVE ME SOME WATER! Feels like most ALL our friends made it here to rest from the heat this week. You know that makes ME so happy...just wish I could not work and get in and hang with them. Wish I could find an "investor" who thought I'd be a GOOD investment to pay me to just hang out and  love my back yard....and the people who visit.
 
Spencer spoke in church today on Chastity. My favorite part was when he asked everyone to remember not to judge each other....he is a talented speaker. I love that he speaks from his heart. That talk should have scored him a few dates :)  I was surprised at how much my own feelings have changed on this subject since I was dating. Hooray for time, experience and change. I hope I live to be old and to share with you the experiences that time gifts you and to see the changes that come.
Love love love love love LOVE is all there is. YOU coming to ME (Dad would get huffy here and say "to US") is one of the greatest examples of that!
 
I am sad I don't have more to report. I oddly thought of you every time I got in the car this week...a  strange occurrence. It makes me wonder what it is connected to? It was so obvious that I wondered if you are OK??? Then I wondered if I worked myself into some psychological snit? I am eager to hear from you tomorrow. Send pics of the new flat if you have them? Also birthday package ideas? I'm anxious to hear how long it takes for you to get the last package. My heart soared as I saw how HAPPY you are in the Baptism Pics.  I love it like right now when I know you are home safe and sleeping:)
 
May the angels fly you home in that sleep for a golf with Spencer and a swim with me and lunch with Dad.....get your love all over em"!!!!! Here's a truck load to you from me!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoooooooooooooooxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Mom
 
 

Monday, June 24, 2013

Email from Sam 24 June 2013


 
 
What a week!!
 
Basically all we did this week was clean the old flat, move into the new one, and prepare for susan's baptism.  We're finally moved in to a flat where everything is functional, and we have a warm shower :) now I'm actually exited to wake up in the mornings because I don't have to dread the shower.  On Wednesday we taught Susan the law of tithing, and she was totally fine with it. Thursday morning was her baptismal interview, and I had a prompting that I needed to call her right after I got dressed. So I called her, to her sobbing because she decided the night before that she wasn't going to get baptized anymore.  She told us how sorry she was and that the reason was because she felt like she was just getting sold to, and that we only wanted her baptized so that she can pay tithing.  Thank goodness we made that phone call, because immediately we went over to her house, talked everything over, and gave her a blessing.  The Zone Leader that interviewed her did amazing resolving her concerns, and she passed the interview.  That night we visited her and she was like, "you know what I think the devil was trying to play a trick on me because he doesn't want me to be saved" amen to that.  So obviously she got baptized!! (Ruby told me she posted it on facebook, Ruby is my favorite member by the way, even though she's totally insane..in a good way) I was so lucky to be able to baptize her, and had the privledge of speaking at her baptism. She brought her family and a friend, and the spirit was absolutely unbelievable.  No doubt in my mind that everything from day 1 with susan was guided perfectly by the spirit, and all Elder Pauly and I did was live worthily to receive promptings. that's it! Her confirmation was really good as well. She said that she couldn't drive home after church because she felt like the spirit was to strong and she was "tipsy" hahaha. It was absolutely amazing, and I cannot wait to help more people enter into the strait gate which is baptism. 
 
Other than that, I'm probably going to be transferred on wednesday, and I don't want to leave. it's not fair that you have to leave an area that you love. I'm sure I'll love all of my areas, but the people in the ward, the investigators, and even the random people on the street are just too special to leave.  I'll let you guys know next week whether I have been transferred or whether I am staying. 
 
Tell Spencer that he better settle down on the weights, because I have to be the best looking person in the Harris family (just kidding)  That's awesome that you got to see stephen, i'm sure he was an amazing missionary!! I'm so stoked that Mike and Brytni are still dating. she is so rad and obviously so is mike! I bet the rodeo was a blast with the whole family. I miss you guys! think about you every day! pray for you every night! and I know that when you trust the lord, all of your righteous become fulfilled.  Exodus 4?? maybe?? talks about Moses not being very confident with his leadership skills and different skills and god is like "Moses! what the heck! I made you, and therefore you can do whatever you want with my power!" We should think the same way. God created us and loves us so much that we can do whatever with faith! and us Harris' are so lucky because we also come from a mom and a dad that are SO RAD and love us so much as well, that our potential on the earth is basically unlimited. 
 
I love you guys. I love Susan. I love Eastwood. I love this restored gospel. I love Thomas S. Monson. I love the savior. I love my mission!
 
Elder Harris
 
 

Sunday, June 23, 2013

STEPHEN IS HOME!!!! Yes Spencer is THRILLED! Sheridan leaves for Mexico City next Tuesday!
First stop...Strawberry Days Rodeo!
Dad and Meg hitting trail
Rachel Bean Engaged!
Cousin Stacy ENGAGED!
Michael and Brittany NOT ENGAGED but having TONS of FUN!!! At some new paint it experience in Park City...
and at the Rodeo! Michael left today with Andy for Havasupi.

 
 
Hey LOVE BUG!!!!
We LOVED getting the baptism pics.  It was so nice to come home to. I was in Florida Sunday thru Thursday...I LOVE going home. I worked Do Terra and visited with friends. I will give more details later when I can get my phone pics to post. I felt wrapped in happiness. The moss in the trees...Sirius radio, the noise the Katydid's make when its SO HOT and humid...seeing the home I grew up in, the lake, the beach, Suwannee...it was soul building. I keep learning things about myself. I like to drive! I like to be by myself! I love spending time with friends with NOTHING planned except being together. I will send a pic of my friend Connie who made me a FEAST...JUST FOR THE 2 of US!!! and we sat on her balcony in Suwannee overlooking the water and just breathing in the humidity and sharing our hearts. I will know later this week if I have a builder there. I am SO crossing my fingers for this darling woman in St. Augustine! Heidi and I did our dinner out at this Italian restaurant called Francesca's and I swear it was the most heavenly Tortellini I have EVER had! That says a lot after La Dulce Vida for me :)

I got home just in time to spend all yesterday at a Do Terra Symposium we put on yesterday. I love the product and the changes it makes in people's lives. I am impressed more and more and more. Josh came home and we all went to the Rodeo last night. I got to see Stephen today finally...he is such a great boy/man. Life is moving on. Kelsey is here in the family room right now...she just brought over oatmeal chocolate chip cookies and to tell us that she is going to go Nanny in Germany for 6 months at summer's end. How amazing is that? Spencer is getting SO buff...he does that INSANITY every day and sometimes twice.

The book I read this week is called RETURN TO LOVE by Marianne Williamson. It was such a pleasure to have all the uninterrupted time on the flights. She is a teacher of the curriculum THE COURSE IN MIRACLES. I pretty much love every word she shares. I love her testimony of how every person we meet and every person in our lives is so on purpose and ALL for us to give and receive love.  Another one for the LIST for when you get home. GO GIVE IT and then SLURP up all that is given you!

I'm excited to hear the details of how the baptism went for you. AND every other little thing. I love you. I MISS YOU!!! This morning was Max Hill's farewell. He and CJ go in on Wednesday. Did I say how MUCH I LOVE YOU???  Excited for your letter.

Your Momma
XXOOXXOOXOXOXOXOOOOOXOOXXXXXXOOOX

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Father's Day 2013

 Spencer buzzed his head...I had just gotten use to his hair...not sure which way I like best...maybe hair? Lucky him, EITHER way he's beautiful!
 BIKING! Glorious Biking on the trails!!!
Another Saturday Pool Party...there are no words for how much we LOVE this pool!!!

We missed you at our Father's Day Breakfast this morning. We missed you at Father's Day Hanger Taco Dinner that Laura and Megan made last night. We miss you when we go to the midnight show of Superman. We MISS YOU when we go to the Tim McGraw Concert.  We went with the Nickles...I was sad...Tim is trying on his NEW stuff from his new album and I don't like it. I hope Kenny Chesney leaves his NEW stuff home when he comes next month!

I am leaving for Florida today:) Off to Do Terrorize the south...pray I get 3 bulders will you?
I am sad I won't be able to go to the beach. I am SO excited to see so many of my friends.

This morning was CJ's farewell. Someone took clippers to Herman. I am sad... I wanted to groom him like a lion like Karie use to do to Moby...guess it can still happen...but he looks funny around his face. It's the US OPEN and SPENCER is in HEAVEN...Spencer bought Dad a new putter for Father's Day. Josh came home too:) Michael and Brittany are STILL ADORABLE!!! Michael is loving being in his new place.

I LOVE YOU ! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!!! I LOVE YOU!!!! Send me pics of your new flat K? Let me know when you get your package...I know I just sent it so it will be a few weeks.
LOVE em' GOOD and LOVE em' Hard:)
The Momma
xxooxxoxoxoxoxooooooooooxxxxxxxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoox
P.S. This is Meg. I wanted you to see Joshy face too! I am texting 3 boys and have been out with one of them twice. I'll probably go out with him and another one this week. So yeah, I channeled my inner Sam Harris and started working it ;) Bring on the free dinners! Keep praying. In the meantime I'm having a great summer so far with my girls! LOVE you!!!!
 

Monday, June 10, 2013

Letter from Sam 10 June 2013

my most amazing eternal family!!
 
Another good week for us! On Monday we went to Nottingham, and had a way fun relaxing day there. including the most amazing all you can eat chinese buffet i've ever been to. haha i was at the same place Mike was at, the "oldest pub in great britain" that is underneath the castle, so i thought that was pretty cool!!
 
We have been working a ton this week with our investigator named Allison. We taught her, and she was loving everything! on thursday we taught her the word of wisdom. she understands why it's important, but isn't willing to quit smoking. it's so frustrating! I know that if she will try her best, with faith, she will be able to quit no problem! and see the lords hand in her quitting.  unfortunately we haven't been able to see her since thursday because she's in manchester until tuesday! so please keep Allison Foster in your prayers! I love her to death and can't wait to see how her life is going to change with the gospel.
 
Susan is still unreal. we had a lesson on friday, where we asked her to pray about something she was struggling with, and she couldn't even get the words out through all of her tears, she had already gotten the answer before asking! It is so amazing to have an investigator like her, because honestly, because of the power of the spirit, no matter what we teach, she automatically has a testimony of it! I cannot wait for her baptism on the 22nd!! Susan came to church yesterday, and for sunday school we learned about the signs of the second coming. It was a little scary for us because that is a lot of deep doctrine for someoen just learning about the gospel for the first time. she loved it though! and didn't really have any questions about it which was super nice!
 
I finally had some barbeque burgers and dogs! it was the first food i've had so far that reminded me of home!
 
Yesterday in church a lady didn't show up to give her talk. so they asked me to on the spot go and give a talk about my conversion. I was super nervous but I think that i had the spirit with me. and with the spirit with me it was probably a good talk! at least I hope so!
 
That's about it for this week! I love you guys so much! mom--I almost hugged someone this week. haha but I didn't. and it was so great to hear that spencer was on the couch cleaning his clubs just like old times! haha that made me laugh and feel good! for the package-just surprise me with good things, maybe reeces stuff because they don't have any here!
 
Love you guys way more than you can imagine. so blessed that we have the oppurtunity to live together forever when we live the gospel!! because i cannot imagine not spending eternity with my favorite people ever :)
 
Take Care!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
-Bam.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

It's SUMMER Bam!


 Megan and crew had a pool party here yesterday...the yard was hopping! Michelle Lewis and friends came swimming before them...Bronson has moved out and Laddie has moved back in:)I LOVE how she is always sunshine and laughter! SO FUN to be around.
 Happy Pic of the week just for YOU!
Andre Peterson died this week. He was a great friend and mentor to Dad at Word Perfect. I feel my mortality. He was only 60. He died of a heart attack. At the funeral were so many people that have been in MY LIFE...a sweet reunion. LOVE IS ALL THERE IS. REALLY. JUST LOVE!  He gave us the Bosch mixer on the kitchen counter at a WP award event...he said of Dad "he slices, he dices, he gets us  MIXED UP :)"...made me realized we've had that Bosch 26 years!!!! My FAVORITE kitchen appliance EVER.  Made me realize a lot of things...especially about what I want to BE and DO and experience before its my turn to go. I'm writing my REAL bucket list today.
This is Roland Harrell. He died this week too. I grew up with him at church. He was a few years older than me...he was always laughing. And you know how you just know when a person likes YOU? Not the boyfriend or girlfriend type of like, but just LIKE? Roland LIKED me and I loved him for it. I'll never forget when he came home from his mission and had met the love of his life ON his mission and how sad the older girls were. Actually, they were MAD. :)Waited the 2 years and NO ONE got the prize!  And see him with his amazing mother? THIS IS THE WOMAN I HAVE TOLD YOU ALL ABOUT!!! The one who was surprised with being pregnant after 50!!!!! I laugh now when I think of how many times I held out that that could be MY miracle after being shut down after Sam.  Well...now I'm here. At fifty. Nope. SO NOT WANTING THAT MIRACLE THANK YOU! But it could be sent to ANY of my kids :)
For their anniversary Uncle Ron gave Aunt Jeanette something on HER BUCKET List! Love these people. How blessed are WE that THEY belong to us? Their life and love story is one for the books.
 Mike getting FOOD snuck in...SO want to know how they pulled that off!
 Sam cleaning up RUBY BROWNING's "GARDEN":)
Here we are with UNCLE GORDON...and here is the facebook announcement this week from his son MAC:

Well here is one that will surprise a few family and friends. My dad left yesterday without telling anyone, drove to Montana and married Rose Daniels today!!! 85 years young. When I asked if he was kidding his comment was, yep, just signed the papers and now we're going to get some lunch......
Congratulations dad!! You never cease to amaze me.

My response:
CAN I JUST SAY I TOLD YOU SO TO DON J HARRIS!!!!!

Roses hands were cold and Gordon picked them up to warm them...the way he warmed them and the way SHE looked at him...doesn't matter if you're 85 or not...that kind of love still LOOKS the same! I asked Dad if they were together and her said NO. The WIN for ME! :)

My "getting out of my head and living from my heart" book this week was a re read of Robert Holden's SHIFT HAPPENS. My heart went straight to you on his blurb entitled "THERE IS NO SEPARATION"...I'm copying it and putting it in your package I am sending tomorrow. But the jest is just as Einstein taught "separation is an optical illusion". And Yasutani Roshi (spiritual teacher) taught "The fundamental delusion of humanity is to suppose that I am here and YOU are out there." Then quoting Robert "The truth is, you are not separate from anything, ever. There is no time and space between you and God. The same is true between you and your Unconditioned Self.
Separation is the great disease of mankind. It is because you believe you are separate and alien to the rest of life that you experience lack, struggle, conflict, illness, and pain. .......skipping several paragraphs.....Think about it! It is impossible to feel wholly connected to life and be depressed. It is impossible to feel pure ONENESS and feel and have anxiety. It is impossible to join unconditionally with  someone and be in fear. It is impossible to be with GOD and in hell........skipping again.....
Separation does not exist, and yet feeling separate from your innate wholeness can spread quickly into your consciousness, causing you to experience yourself cut off from Heaven, nature, from humanity and from your own feelings, from your creativity, from your higher self and from hope.

I realize that Robert is talking about the separations we create with and in  humanity...but it really hit home with me for YOU and ME...we are SO NOT SEPARATE. Everyday begins with a prayer for your happiness and safety and love and laughter. And each day as it progresses and more prayers are prayed by me  you are almost always in them...even if its just a fleeting...wrap Sam in happiness...so you ARE WITH ME.  Robert ends the book with asking that we begin each day with this prayer "Dear God, today I give up the thought of separation. Amen" This is the perfect prayer for THIS MOMMA!
He ends with this and I LOVE IT!!!
                                      
                            IN ME IS ALL OF HEAVEN, IN HEAVEN IS ALL OF ME.

With that said, we all agree you've been gone quite long enough...  :) I so close my eyes when I am standing in the emptiness of the house and see you standing in the door way  with your arms bidding me in them and you saying "Come here, come here" and then I AM WRAPPED up in your hug.    I LOVE IT when you do that to me. What Seems a SIN  to me is that you cannot hug or bid others there to that same place. That is part of your magic Sam. I'm eager to see how you renegotiate that one!

The weeks are always so full. I am examining that. Do I have them too full? Something about Summer! I  want to PLAY. I want  all the worldly, make a living cares to just go away till fall while I lay by the pool and have BBQ's with friends and just sit on the swings with people I love. Ok...and lay on the lounge and READ. So many people and things to love. I will need a thousand lifetimes. I just made myself shutter when I wrote that. I am so NOT up to a thousand lifetimes. At least not today.
Dad is in South America. Megan is working hard. She's at a funky place in learning and mastering her new responsibilities at work--as well learning how to ask for assistance. Adulthood brings us SKILLS! She went out with a kid twice this week. That brings a smile to all of our faces. Michael and Brittany are as cute as puppies. Josh stayed in Logan but is gutting it through this nasty calculus class...he and David Chester are taking it together and spending  over 4 hours a day on the homework. Spencer has our house filled with friends again---HAPPY MOMMA! He is golfing most everyday with Joe Hatch. He starts work tomorrow. He's been getting out there...taken Chuni out a few times. He works out like a ban chi! He does INSANITY and then goes and lifts and then sometimes does it again! He is a good friend. I love having his sweetness around . One morning this week I woke up and was picking up the family room and he had his golf cleaning stuff left out...and my heart just exploded and tears rolled that HE IS HOME!!!  It's still a HAPPY jolt sometimes that its OVER. I am working on physical separation skills :)  Every time I have one of these type moments I am seized with gratitude that every one of you is so blessedly AMAZING...I can't imagine the heartache of children who have made horrible choices or hate their parents. Mostly, I feel that surety that no matter what choices any of us make....cuz we SO AREN"T DONE...we would NOT FEEL TO OR SEPARATE because of them and WE LOVE EACH OTHER. It also helps me to feel at one with the GODS and how they MUST feel when WE COME HOME.

So LOVE BUG...hug them to you with your heart of magic.....and FEEL MY HUGS from here!
Let me know what you want added to the package...I will seal and send by 2 tomorrow :)
MOM
xxooxxooxxooxxooxxooxxooxx
Oh...did I tell you HOW MUCH  I LOVE YOU???!!!!!!!!



Monday, June 3, 2013

From Sam 3 June 2013

 
 
This picture was of us, at the end of may!! haha it was freezing and raining so hard! pretty different from what it should feel like at the end of may, but it's alright! I'm getting used to the rain!
 
Tuesday this week we had an all you an eat buffet dinner appointment with a member, immediately following that appointment he dropped us off at a members home where we had another meal, so needless to say I was pretty full. we then after both meals had to ride our bikes about 3 miles to our chapel where we had ward coordination. in the middle of the meeting I just ate so much that I just couldn't keep it in anymore and RAN outside the chapel where I lost pretty much everything I had eaten the entire day. sorry if that was too much information :) haha
 
On Wednesday we got a call from a lady who lives in the edge of our area, who had a book of mormon, started reading it, LOVES IT, and she requested the missionary lessons! For her first lesson she wanted to have a tour of the church and the baptismal font, so that will be happening tomorrow! such a miracle. the Lord does basically everything during missionary work.  Later on Wednesday, Elder Pauly was really prompted to knock on a door, so we did. They opened the door, weren't to interested, but we left them a restoration pamphlet, and were just planning on following up in a little bit. that night, a member called us and said that he is best friends with the guy who we tracted, and the potential was asking the member all these questions, so hopefully he will become a new investigator as well!
 
Susan is on fire. she is amazing! she said the other day, "All I ever want to do, is read the Book of Mormon, and then just ponder about what I've read." She also realizes that her days go by much more smoothly as she reads in the morning. She is such a blessing! a perfect example, of how missionaries are really just instruments in the lords hands! We also have an investigator named allison, i'm not sure if I let you know about her. she has a problem with everything in the word of wisdom except for illegal drugs, but she totally felt the spirit like crazy when we gave her a tour of the chapel, so that's good! those are our only two progressing investigators at the moment, but on thursday we taught 5 lessons! which might not sound like a lot, but it's improvement!
 
On thursday I finally got to shoot a basketball! no one ever plays in England! so that was fun.
 
Not much else to write about this week. holy cow the weeks fly by, that's all I can say! I love you so much family! I also love our savior Jesus Christ, and the scriptures! I would recommend to everyone in the family to read the book of mormon EVERYDAY! even if it's for 1 chapter, I know that we will be blessed!!
 
Love you family! take care and don't have too much fun soakin' up the sun and swimming in the pool!
 
Elder Harris

Sunday, June 2, 2013

To my BAMMER

 They Graduated....

 These girls are still playing....
Dad is off to Brazil for 11 days. Michael feels like he is IN BRAZIL now that he has moved out. I was SO HAPPY when he and Brittany came over mid week.  Josh came home for Friday and went back Saturday--Dave Chester went with him...they are going to be roommates.  Spencer and da Brethren are about miscellaneous events, soccer, basketball, work...none that involve women-- the big wussies. OK...he DID hang out with Chunie this week...will give him credit for that. He also is FLYING SO HIGH now that he has been hired at Unita...and LOOKS Mighty FINE with his new golf WORK clothes:) Pretty sure the goal is for you both to design and build your own golf course! I've GOT to get DoTerra flying to be able to invest in that one! Jeremy and kiddos showed up late last night...I LOVE IT WHEN THEY ARE HERE! I taught my princesses in Primary today. Playdoe, bubbles, Oreo's and string cheese make ANY third hour of church doable. Made we wish I could find YOU in whatever hour YOU are in and bring you TREATS!  The weather is FINALLY pool worthy. I LOVE when the people we love find their way back there to us. I should have made the STAY rock a billboard. The canyon and trails are breath taking.  Herman was in another scrap with the wild cat.

Sometimes missing you hits me hard. I saw Jackie Schroppel at the movies and she asked about you and is freaked to have CJ go...lets just say I was happy to be in a dark theatre...and happy to tell myself THIS IS THE LAST TIME EVER!!!!

I've been reading--I know, you are surprised :)...but this is a book by Gabrielle Bernstein entitled SPIRIT JUNKIE, A Radical Road to Self -Love and Miracles. The title vacuumed me in. I know I was suppose to FIND this one, really, it found me. I am overwhelmed with the miracles in my life, and yet I still beg for MORE!  She talks about how she is WASHED in LOVE in her meditations the same way I am! (I am dying to know if she has a hot tub). When I FEEL this washing I just WANT EVERYONE ELSE to feel it too! One of the doctrines of the church I haven't  been able to agree with is  their belief that if you sin the Spirit leaves you and cannot be with you. I have lived my whole life a "sinner" and somehow I have been special enough that I am the ONLY ONE IT DOES NOT LEAVE? That just can't be. Same with Gabrielle. Doesn't leave her either. You KNOW I don't think that I am more special than any other human on this planet. I  trust MY OWN experiences over what other people tell me is their truth. I am open that our truths are different. Just sweet to connect with a spiritual soul sister who sees things pretty close to the way I do. And I also LOVE LOVE LOVE the way her heart yearns for others to trust in what they feel in their quiet knowing and prayers-- to JUST RELAX and LOVE and FEEL the LOVE of a higher source....and then LETS TALK ABOUT IT in a way that everyone gets to hold their personal experiences valued and right.  Gabrielle has studied in depth this book called the COURSE IN MIRACLES that I have made stabs at several times. I feel like a spiritual "wee thing" when I proceed to process the ideas there. I am encouraged to come back to it again because of her.  So many worlds going on right here on this ONE. I want to put my foot in so many of them...and then I laugh when I think of the ones I NEVER WANT TO GET CLOSE TO! Whatever worlds are being created in and near EASTWOOD England, I feel pretty sure I want IN to all of them. Where ever YOU are I WANT TO BE. xxooxx

I am going HOME to Gainesville on the 17th to find this AMAZING SAUCE person who is just waiting to be in business with me and they don't even know it:)! I am eager to find them. I thrill to think I will have reason to go home ONCE A MONTH!  Happy! HAPPY! HAPPY!  So many of my friends are being gracious and letting me introduce them to the oils. I keep laughing as I think how I WOULD have felt if one of THEM had approached ME with anything that looked like an MLM just a few months ago! And here I am IN LOVE with the company and the oils and a missionary of Natural Health!  Who gets to have such generous and loving friends???   I DO!!!!  There are moments when I am still so surprised at myself and  think "Now WHAT am I doing????"    And then I think, oh yeah...  in 3 years ONE of you could be married and I  COULD have  GRANDBABY that I WILL want to play with for uninterrupted days on end! AND YOU WILL BE HOME! And some of the other kids might be at places that they COULD stop and PLAY with me for a week at a time or so.... and maybe even starting on the golf course...and then there are MY other dreams ...  and QUICKLY I snap joyously back to  work knowing I am about the creation of the funds to FUND these dreams.

So you know...I'm just sayin'...if NONE of my current dreams were to come to pass...My heart would STILL be near to bursting with LOVE and HAPPINESS....because of the MIRACLES that have been mine. You Sam. YOU. You are one of my most favoritest Miracles EVER. EVER!!!!! I would have come JUST TO BE WITH YOU!!! Whose heart could NOT be FILLED with LOVE for the CREATOR of this amazing life SURVIVOR?? And what a brilliant game master that WE ALL WIN!

MISS ME BACK HARD!
XXOOXXOOXXOOXX
I'd love to see pics of the new flat!
Mom
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