Friday, August 28, 2015
Saturday, August 15, 2015
Wednesday, August 12, 2015
Suddenly I am fisting BOOKS into my mouth, kind of the way cookie monster in sesame street did with cookies when I was little. Book pieces are dropping out both sides of my mouth and crumbling all around me...I am scooping them up and forcing them in. I am literally just pounding books in my mouth as fast as I can. :)
I hear the sweetest laugh. I can't see her. I am looking wildly around. She laughs again. I become ultra aware of the nothingness I am in. I want to see her. Instead, I FEEL her hold me. I didn't realize I had been longing to be held. We rock back and forth. No words are spoken. Yet, she teaches me. I understand in a new way. In my physical world I had knowing, but I didn't SEE.
I have hungrily taken in more food than my body can process and digest through, so it will stay with me until I do. I purposely put it there. I chose it. It will stay...until its processed through.
I have hungrily devoured masses of books, the ideas and principles will literally hang all around me until they are processed through. As my body has limits of processing, so does my heart and soul.
Now the ALIVE HAPPY BUDHA is sitting across from me laughing with his arms raised. He never releases eye contact or lowers his arms as his HAPPY wraps around me. I want to swim in his laughter. He is PLEASED with EVERYTHING. The Epitome of ALL IS WELL and BEYOND!
She tells me to really look at Him.....she asks me if I'm hungry? I quickly throw out...I am ALWAYS hungry! Again she asks...Are you Hungry? I am nervous to answer, I KNOW there is a lesson here for me to get. Once more...ARE YOU HUNGRY????
No words to respond, now, I AM THE HAPPY BUDHA and there is no hunger here.
I love me a dream of the night. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.
PS Still woke up wanting my coffee and another chapter in my book. Grace. Gratitude.
Monday, August 10, 2015
I LOVE THE MAGIC IN OUR WORLD!!!!!
Thursday, August 6, 2015
After finishing Michael Singer's book on the Surrender Experiment I have been particularly aware of EVERYTHING that is delivered up to me. Tuesday as I was preparing to travel to Grand Junction it seemed as if everything was taking longer than I expected and I was worried I would be late. I had this odd feeling...so much so I wondered if going was wise. I did a kid check. I had the car checked. After prayer and quiet I felt peace. Even with the peace, I decided to ask Alice to drive...I can have a heavy foot on some of those long ugly stretches. My delays had us leaving a full hour late...we still had time to make the class on time.
Just as we were entering Colorado we drove up to stopped traffic. People were out of their cars. We couldn't see what the issue was. But I knew. I knew someone had passed and that I was there on purpose to witness and "hold" the reverence and love of all who were there, stopped. I knew that THIS was the catalyst of the events and feelings of my morning. I knew I was on sacred ground at a sacred TIME. I knew I was suppose to be there.
Noah Graham, THANK YOU. I WILL LOVE HARDER for at least a little while. I send you my GRATITUDE for the pause and re-dedication of living my best life.
I am in wonder that I would FEEL that so much BEFORE it happened. I am intrigued at the details of my morning that synchronized to ensure my being there. I am overwhelmed at the KNOWING that coursed through me that I was MEANT to be there. I could not help but take note of the beauty of the events and people that gathered to me afterwards. I LIVE.
I am. I am. I am. I am.
Noah IS. Still.