Wednesday, November 18, 2015


Megs just suggested this and I am only 2 chapters in and I am saying with my whole heart...Listen to is a YES!!! You are going to be laughing and cheering xxooxx.
I love that I am in England, She is on a plane to Canada. And still....we get to talk.

Life Changing Movies

 When I was 17 I was in love with a 24 year old who asked me to marry him. I was SURE I was suppose to ....I saw MY BIRLLIANT CAREER and in one movie's time knew otherwise.
Tonight our work meetings took us later than expected and we missed seeing our show in we went to the movies. I have a perfect life in soooo many ways. Again...this movie spoke to me and set my heart in a different direction. Did I tell you I LOVE IRELAND????? And Brooklyn? And yes, I am a MORAN, County Donegal.

Thursday, November 12, 2015


Thank you Sterling for signing WABI SABI by your phone number--and thank you ME that I love to learn new things...especially words with meanings---or anything with meaning, The quick inter clicks on the definition didn't serve its meaning nearly as well as this Ted Talk. Carol Hunt has joined my TEAM of nightly imagined consultations.
The beauty and TRUTH of this Japanese principle has profoundly affected my heart and made me even more grateful ----YET AGAIN---to belong to THIS WORLD!!  A big heap of love for the Japanese and Carol Hunt!!!!
LOVE ME A TED TALK!!!!....and YOU!!!

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Bodies don't lie.....

I LIKE TO THINK that when it comes to me "what you see is what you get"...with the tagline "HEY...and I'm always trying to be BETTER". It's not true. You don't get to see me standing, fighting with myself at Walmart in front of the freezer case where they have 10 Totino's pizzas for $10. I GET that most of you are repulsed that I would even consider it. Well. I freaking LOVE those little pizzas with 4000 calories per 20 bites. You don't see me drive by 3 McDonald's before I drive through the 4th for a Big Mac and large fries. It fills that hole. That hole that says THERE IS PAIN HERE and I WANNA FEEL BETTER!!! I don't wildly, with hands flailing scoop for just anything to fill the holes. I choose food. ****There are no children home with me now for me to set the right example. No one to tell me no :)

THANK YOU LIFE.  It's just me. I decide. I am choosing different. TODAY.

What you do see is the product of those choices. Our bodies can't lie. What you see IS what you get. And um...I have not  been trying to be better. 40 pounds in 12 months holding now for like 28 months.

I only care in the morning when I go to get dressed. Once covered, I race through my day consuming all sorts of glorious less than healthy but ohhhhh so emotionally satisfying "fuel".

How many times I have fought this fight? I am up for one more time.

This week Oprah told the world on Ellen that she has lost 15 pounds on Weight Watchers. I have a rocking friend Marcii who has been on Weight Watchers for years and her body doesn't lie and it works. I'v successfully done Weight Watchers twice. Can you call it successful when you continue to regress? I am defining success as releasing the weight desired. So yep...I did the work. It was a success. It is what happens in the IN BETWEEN times that needs new definition.

At dinner last night Megs has been going back to Cross Fit and it shows. I am always inspired by her continual dedication and will power.

Then today, as many other days throughout the past year, my friend Carter posted on Facebook.

DAMN! Right??!! All year she has posted and I have felt compelled. Kind of.  Jealous.  Envious. YES! BUT NO ACTION on my part. (okay...not true, I bought the Beach Body shake and DVD's...I bought the prepared food meal plan...I hired a friend to bring me the Fast Metabolism foods and and...) Carter and I are the SAM E age. Something about seeing AGAIN that it CAN BE DONE...something lit the fire. Soooooo starting RIGHT NOW. I choose me. I choose health and strength and THOSE ARMS...see those arms??? I have had my LAST SUPPER. (number 3017 or somewhere near that number). of the Totino's. I had my last coffee. I had a pumpkin cookie. At 1:19 on Sunday the 25th of October I declare my allegiance to myself. To the REAL me.
THANK YOU CARTER....this pic single handedly assisted my HEAD.
Go Time!!!Eager to post my pic October 25th of 2016.....

Until then....gonna figure out the weight lifting strategy. Gonna get me some accountability support. Gonna start loving on some vegies and fruits and some more vegies. Gonna do sit ups and pushs every morning and night. Gonna run some races. Gonna swim at the rec. Gonna find me a hot tub.

SUNDAY 25th of Oct 2015

Morning is hinting at coming from behind the mountains. I wish you could see starts and then comes SOOO fast!!! I am excited. ANYTHING could happen today. ANYTHING. And amongst those ANYTHINGS are some crazy great imaginings and hopes from deep inside.

It is another Sunday morning in my 52nd year.

When I look in the mirror I am sad at the dark circles and extra pounds. Until I come to my chair and meditate. legs fold with matter HOW I LOOK, I FEEL 20 something. My meditation is again about living from my highest self. Throughout I am diverted by love thoughts for my kids, my friends, my work, my body, my home, my world, my possibilities. Sometimes I am diverted by the mean scared thoughts that I have programmed in as well. But only SOMETIMES.

How appropriate. My angel number for the day is 405: God and the Angels are helping you change your life for the better.


Welcome Morning. The thrill of what could be today races up and out my head leaving my limbs shivering. GOD BLESS IT ALL.


                                                                   ALL MINE!!!!

 THANK YOU KIM for SHARING PYPER!!!! I mean REALLY...ahhhh...HUMANS created this!!! ALL of the above....and hey...I had part in that darling blonde girl up above!!!  xxooxx

Friday, October 23, 2015

Hold my hand??????

                                           Friend posted and I wanted to save.
                                            More magic from favorite artist.

                                                  Beyond the Stars I tell you!!!

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Lassen Aria Phoenix...THANK YOU xxooxx

Lassen Aria's post Oct 10 2015 at 9:13 changed my heart....AGAIN. Thank you. What if I just SLOW down? What if it takes 6 years??? It doesn't matter when you LOVE what you do....

Thursday, October 8, 2015

Leader LEARN.

I was taught the 20/80 rule today when dealing with issues with my team...or anyone. 20% of the conversation is in listening and becoming clear on the issue....the next 80% is spent problem solving together by asking questions. If it can not be solved, we spend the conversation speaking to minimize the issue. I was taught that many people feel better by having you LISTEN to their issue without really wanting a resolution.  I LOVE learning a new way. I LOVE IT!!! I choose not to have issue /LISTEN conversations....I choose other energy. I'm learning so much as a leader. Just noting.
I learned that I suck at receiving compliments. I learned that its hard for a man to give a compliment and when I down play it it can make them feel stupid for saying it. 
I listened/learned as I witnessed a network marketing Guru turn a not so exciting venture into one that everyone one wanted to participate in. WOWZA. 
I realized that I LOVE MY WORK. That I love it so much I have to make myself stop (how lucky is that???) What I REALLY LOVE, are the people I work with...and the parts I don't love...I'm hiring someone else to do. My heart is beating out of my chest in gratitude that THIS is my life...and I get to create it!!!!!  xxooxx
PS Did you see how close Venus and moon are these days...a comfort to me in the dark on my runs.

Sunday, October 4, 2015


Blew my socks off.

I have just finished Brene Brown's RISING STRONG
....and Elizabeth Gilbert's BIG MAGIC

...and then to walk into this movie! WOWZA. I am gobsmacked. Gobsmacked has happily trounced into my vocabulary the last week. My mind is non stop reeling in the life analogies. To pinpoint our aloneness in our common ground.

I sat in my recliner movie chair as all the wisdom downloaded and transitioned deep into my DNA. YES...we have ALL been left behind "on MARS"..left behind "in FEAR". Whatney says F*** MARS....which really means F*** FEAR. I say AMEN. I say SEE THE MOVIE or READ the BOOK. Make your own life parallels. Today I assessed again the situations to be addressed differently...obviously those NOT WORKING or keeping me from THE TEAM.

I love Whatney's grit, but more, his magical perspective...suddenly, I wanna feel like I'm actually flying around like IRON MAN if I I am OUT THERE zipping all over the terrain of my creating without knowledge of a sure landing.

I am going to start naming things after me since I am living alone in the harsh reality of my Mars environment. No more "curiosity killed the cat" it will be THE NATALIE QUESTIONS--- that enlightened generations xxooxx

I love that we came to problem solve as best we can with the information we have brought to ourselves. There are literally 100 phrases or conversations in the movie that held my heart. Even when we are alone....our TEAM is out there coming to our rescue WHEREVER our decisions have placed us.

Really truly mi hijos......TE QUIERO!!!!

I have fear. I feel alone on Mars, left behind...Negotiating the realities and non realities of life.  I am scared. Way more of my life efforting/problem solving has found me face down in the dirt. You get a front row seat. YOU are MY TEAM. I love you.

Quotes from the book:
Big talks ahead...

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Water follows the path of least resistance


Tell me....

You don't want this EXACT outfit ???????????  And magical powers to make wishes come true for others???????????

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Love what new people in my life introduce me to :)
GO HERE. As soon as you can. Hug and Kiss ME later for the introduction.

Courage is being scared to death but saddling up anyway....JW

 Life IS GOOD   xxooxx
 Approaching END of MONTH :)
My camera phone has called it a day and refuses to focus. Do not think I have missed the personal analogy. I wanted a picture of my office in my creative state. Did I tell you I love making things work? That I love PEOPLE? That I LOVE this world? That I LOVE that I get to be on the planet RIGHT NOW? ( Presidential debates, Ascension advocates, scientific journals, printed and live economic forecasting, football season, SURVIVOR starting again, new friends, old friends, coffee dates, lunch dates, dinner dates, Grandbaby flag football games, time with my kids, time with my kids, time with my MUCH I want to slurp up!!!!)

I want more side boards to hold all the stacks....more brain space to hold all the ideas...more time and skill at reading, learning, inspiring,  teaching,  leading, dancing, loving!!!! I want a full time assistant for all the stuff that bores me and feels like dross. I want to pay someone to go to the post office, book flights, put gas in the car, pay the bills,  change over the laundry I started yesterday, stand by me in keeping my word to myself as I transition my eating habits.

That I would even write the words I WANT MORE of anything feels so ungrateful. Yet, truth.

I  want a living Mom. That woman who watches my living. She steps in with greatest love and guides me with her knowing,  because she has gone before me.  She has tips and tricks and experienced new and other love and other "ways" to share with me.  She loves me like I love my kids. She gets me. She loves my heart. She loves my imperfections. She shares the secrets of sacred living. I miss you Mom. I talk to her out loud as well as in my meditations. I sometimes see her in my dreams. I feel her even now. I want her HERE in the physical talking touching holding now.

Whoa! WOWZA!   My life is the Bombdiggity    xxooxx Or at least my imagination/promptings/signs/mom messages--  make it so :)  I am laughing out loud as I notice Mr. Wayne there in my office pic posted above without  my DREAM BOARD PICS taped all over the top of him (I bought the pic only to use the frame for my dream board). The pics I had taped on top all fell off in one big chunk. The whole thing just FELL OFF.  I took note, attributing it to an angel message :)

I decided to redo my board and only put pics there that I wanted to manifest in the next year. That was 4 months ago. I obviously haven't done the work to recreate it.

Mr. Wayne greets me with his loaded barrel self many times a day as I come into my office. He keeps me company as I spend hours in here.  I have been known to talk to JOHN/PARTNER as my day progresses--I use him as a focusing tool when I feel scattered. I put on my Intune oil and while I do it I say "hey, John... or hey, got that pistol focused at hitting BLUE?"... or "training those new builders?"... or "getting another workout in?" ...or from whatever I feel  like I am being distracted.   (I'm impressed with myself that more and more I REALIZE I am being distracted).    :) ANYWAY  :) ... out loud  I will beg John to assist me in creating from my highest self.  So...pretty much I address him like he is a REAL partner. He is my WILSON in Tom Hank's Cast Away. I will call down the heavens to assist me in life lessons-- asking that I get the lessons in the easiest, most happy, thoughtful to/for myself  and others ways....most times I throw JOHN in the mix and smile. Kind of like an inside joke between me and the heavens. Cuz me and heavens, we are intimate like that :)

Back to the laughing out loud.  A dream board is a manifesting tool. I wasn't intending on manifesting a cowboy. Yet... I find it NO coincidence that I manifest a 6'4" COWBOY in my life! I just googled  and  guess how tall John Wayne is??? You can't make this stuff up.

COWBOY  IS pretty awesome. But with my miraculous manifesting skills I think I will take some time today to choose and tape up the desired- yet to be- manifestations bouncing around in my head. I'm going to MAKE SURE they get posted on the magic dream board :) The question is...did I manifest him unintentionally because he is on the dream board space...or did the angels drop the whole dang board to show me a COWBOY and his WAYS were coming and I should pay attention?

I wouldn't have had ANY of these thoughts had I not taken the pic of my office this morning. And then started writing. Did I tell you I love my life? That I love the crazy of me? I don't want to forget the deliberate synchronicities of my life. So I am recording them here.

COWBOY doesn't even know I have a blog. If he did, he is NOT a reader and I doubt he'd read it.  He is a dear, direct, hardworking, SIMPLE man. A simple I long to be. He IS also what  Wikipedia says  about John Wayne " he epitomized rugged masculinity and is famous for his demeanor, including his distinctive calm voice, walk, and height."  

COWBOY is symbolic. I had no idea how much my soul was yearning for simple.  Obviously the God's are directing my  goop it up  brain to OTHER WAYS. Cowboy ways. Simple ways. My brain is exploding with analogies.

*The gorgeous alone drive (to his farm) for hours into what felt like the middle of nowhere-- to be surprised with a heavenly Oasis in the middle of desert.  My soul calmed and clarity emerged in the alone time on the way after just finishing 10 very filled days of Convention.
*Living by the seasons, the DAILY weather, the NOW. I felt reconnected with Mother,..Earth. Especially noted as I continue to move into my new life season. I held a new baby this week and longed for younger days as he giggled and delighted in ME... while feeling extreme relief to have moved passed that place. The wind was blowing like crazy outside for a whole day of the trip, but all was perfect inside.
To quote COWBOY as we were discussing life philosophy "WHY would you worry your pretty little head over something you have absolutely NO CONTROL over?" which  reinforced  BE HERE the BEST you can with what shows up, choose shelter when desired. I control the the elements INSIDE.
*EVERY Morning first watering the fields before starting the rest of the day. Start the day watering my soul.  Yep its work. It takes time.  The work and time produce life sustaining yields.
*Taking time to REST. Rest your fields, your horses, your finances, your heart, your mind, your expectations.
*Work hard/Play hard. Hard = Joy filled intention with action.
*You gotta SPEAK UP when talking or they can't hear you.
*You are related to your entire town. The world and all peoples are our intimate family.
*Everyone in town likes to know your business :).  Nuff said. And we wanna know theirs. Let's make it a LOVE and learning thing.
*Be the person your Dog  thinks you are.
*There are horse (stallion and filly) analogies for every life situation, even and especially in negotiating a new relationship :)

This led me to think there must be some cowboy wisdom out there on the net that maybe I'm suppose to look at...sure nuff....
Cowboy Wisdom and Humor
Ever since a man rode a horse, there has been cowboy wisdom. Enjoy these funny cowboy sayings:
  • Always drink upstream from the herd.
  • An onion can make people cry; but, there’s never been a vegetable that can make people laugh.
  • Any cowboy can carry a tune. The trouble comes when he tries to unload it.
  • Always take a good look at what you’re about to eat. It’s not so important to know what it is, but it’s critical to know what it was.
  • Don't worry about bitin' off more'n you can chew; your mouth is probably a whole lot bigger'n you think.
  • Generally, you ain't learnin' nothing when your mouth's a-jawin'.
  • If you're ridin' ahead of the herd, take a look back every now and then to make sure it's still there with ya.
  • I took to the life of a cowboy like a horse takes to oats.
  • If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop digging.
  • It's better to keep your mouth shut and look stupid than open it and prove it.
  • If it doesn't seem to be worth the effort it probably isn't.
  • Just 'cause trouble comes visiting doesn't mean you have to offer it a place to sit down.
  • Lettin' the cat outta the bag is a whole lot easier than puttin' it back. 
  • Nature gave us all something to fall back on, and sooner or later we all land flat on it.
  • The quickest way to double your money is to fold it over and put it back into your pocket
  • The only good reason to ride a bull is to meet a nurse.
  • Treat a woman like a racehorse, and she'll never be a nag.
  • There' are two theories to arguin' with a woman. Neither one works. 
  • When you give a lesson in meanness to a critter or a person, don't be surprised if they learn their lesson.
  • When you're throwin' your weight around, be ready to have it thrown around by somebody else.
  • We all got pieces of crazy in us, some bigger pieces than others.
  • When you’re throwin’ your weight around, be ready to have it thrown around by somebody else.

Things a Cowboy Should Not Do

Here are some words to live by according to cowboys. Some are really good advice and all are funny cowboy sayings. 
  • Don’t squat with your spurs on. 
  • Don't let your yearnings get ahead of your earnings. 
  • Don't dig for water under the outhouse.
  • Don't go in if you don't know the way out. 
  • Don't mess with something that ain't bothering you.
  • Never drive black cattle in the dark.
  • Never approach a bull from the front, a horse from the rear or a fool from any direction.
  • Never miss a good chance to shut up.
  • Never ask how stupid someone is 'cause they'll turn around and show you.
  • Never ask a barber if you need a haircut.
  • Never slap a man who’s chewing tobacco.

Horse Quotes and Sayings

What would a cowboy, or cowgirl, for that matter, be without his or her horse? Is it even possible to be a cowboy without a horse? Here are some funny sayings about horses.
  • If you get thrown from a horse, you have to get up and get back on, unless you landed on a cactus; then you have to roll around and scream in pain.
  • A cowboy is a man with guts and a horse.
  • If you climb in the saddle, be ready for the ride. 
  • The horse stopped with a jerk-- and the jerk fell off!
  • When in doubt, let your horse do the thinkin'. 
  • Speak your mind, but ride a fast horse.
Cowboys have a way of looking at things a little differently than the rest of us. Their wisdom is simpler and more down to Earth.
I'm so gonna end on John Wayne quotes with a BIG OLE SMILE:
Courage is being scared to death but saddling up anyway.
Life is tough, but it's tougher when you're stupid.
Talk low, talk slow, and don't talk too much.
Tomorrow hopes we have learned something from yesterday.
If everything isn't black and white, I say, “Why the hell not?
If you've got them by the balls their hearts and minds will follow.

 JOHN WAYNE and NATALIE Wood...xxooxxooxxooxx

Friday, September 18, 2015

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Wayne Dyer Man I LOVE

This is the man who showed me OTHER WAYS to think....and my heart would burn. I love that on the day he left, I got to "be" with him and Oprah  on Super Soul Sunday xxooxxooxx

Friday, August 28, 2015

28 August 2015

Happiness is the highest level of health.

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Paulo Coelho

Life always waits for some crisis to occur before revealing itself at its most brilliant.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Are you HUNGRY????????

In my dream I am alone,  sitting in a nothingness walls, no my current weight w my legs crossed. I am NOT disgusted with my tummy roll under my breasts. I am poking at the softness of it. Baffled that I actually LOVE it. I begin thinking of all the yummy things I had eaten.

Suddenly I am fisting BOOKS into my mouth, kind of the way cookie monster in sesame street did with cookies when I was little. Book pieces are dropping out both sides of my mouth and crumbling all around me...I am scooping them up and forcing them in.  I am literally just pounding books in my mouth as fast as I can. :)

I hear the sweetest laugh. I can't see her. I am looking wildly around. She laughs again. I become ultra aware of the nothingness I am in. I want to see her. Instead,  I FEEL her hold me. I didn't realize I had been longing to be held. We rock back and forth. No words are spoken. Yet, she teaches me. I understand in a new way. In my physical world I had knowing, but I didn't SEE.

I have hungrily taken in more food than my body can process and digest through, so it will stay with me until I do. I purposely put it there. I chose it. It will stay...until its processed through.

I have hungrily devoured masses of books,  the ideas and principles will literally hang all around me until they are processed through. As my body has limits of processing, so does my heart and soul.

Now the  ALIVE HAPPY BUDHA is sitting across from me laughing with his arms raised. He never releases eye contact or lowers his arms as his HAPPY wraps around me. I want to swim in his laughter. He is PLEASED with EVERYTHING. The Epitome of ALL IS WELL and BEYOND!

She tells me to really look at Him.....she asks me if I'm hungry? I quickly throw out...I am ALWAYS hungry! Again she asks...Are you Hungry? I am nervous to answer, I KNOW there is a lesson here for me to get. Once more...ARE YOU HUNGRY????

No words to respond, now, I AM THE HAPPY BUDHA and there is no hunger here.

I love me a dream of the night. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.
PS Still woke up wanting my coffee and another chapter in my book. Grace. Gratitude.

Monday, August 10, 2015

Sculptures by FANTASY WIRE

  I came across this artist on Facebook. I am ENCHANTED!!!! I now have a FUN plan for my next England Trip!!1 I will go to Trentham Estate and visit these in person!!! In the meantime...he has these starter kits where we can make our own!!! I have purchased 10...they will be here sometime mid October...if you'd like to join me for a Fairy making day....let me know....

There are moments I am sure I am suppose to be an artist...and a Gardner...and a DANCER...and a poet.....with vast landscapes. .....And Fairies to applaud my doings.
 This one!!! With the KNOW how much I LOVE A WISH!!! The MOVEMENT! The JOY and HAPPY in their poses. I am dedicated to holding myself differently...I wanna blast my happy without having to put WORDS on it...ohhhhhhh....just LOOKEY LOOKEY HERE :)

Thursday, August 6, 2015


After finishing Michael Singer's book on the Surrender Experiment I have been particularly aware of EVERYTHING that is delivered up to me. Tuesday as I was preparing to travel to Grand Junction it seemed as if everything was taking longer than I expected and I was worried I would be late. I had this odd much so I wondered if going was wise. I did a kid check. I had the car checked. After prayer and quiet I felt peace. Even with the peace, I decided to ask Alice to drive...I can have a heavy foot on some of those long ugly stretches. My delays had us leaving a full hour late...we still had time to make the class on time.

Just as we were entering Colorado we drove up to stopped traffic. People were out of their cars. We couldn't see what the issue was. But I knew. I knew someone had passed and that I was there on purpose to witness and "hold" the reverence and love of all who were there, stopped. I knew that THIS was the catalyst of the events and feelings of my morning. I knew I was on sacred ground at a sacred TIME. I knew I was suppose to be there. 

Noah Graham, THANK YOU. I WILL LOVE HARDER for at least a little while. I send you my GRATITUDE for the pause and re-dedication of living my best life.

I am in wonder that I would FEEL that so much BEFORE it happened. I am intrigued at the details of my morning that synchronized to ensure my being there. I am overwhelmed at the KNOWING that coursed through me that I was MEANT to be there.  I could not help but take note of the beauty of the events and people that gathered to me afterwards. I LIVE. 

I am.   I am.   I am.   I am.

Noah IS.   Still.

Centennial man was victim of rollover crash; two others in car injured

A Centennial man was killed in a single-vehicle rollover crash Tuesday on Interstate 70, west of the Loma port of entry.
Noah Graham, 19, was ejected from the rear seat of a 2002 Toyota Highlander, which careened off the eastbound lanes of I-70 near mile marker 14, according to the Colorado State Patrol. Graham later died from injuries he suffered in the crash, which was reported about 7 p.m.
The driver, Mason Isert, 19, of Centennial, suffered injuries described by a trooper as serious and was taken to St. Mary’s Hospital. A passenger, Jack Gause, 19, of Castle Rock, was hospitalized with moderate injuries.
According to the State Patrol, preliminary investigation shows the sport-utility vehicle failed to negotiate a left curve and went off I-70 on the right side, rolling approximately 2 1/2 times before coming to a rest on its roof. Graham was thrown from the vehicle as it rolled.
Drugs and alcohol are not suspected factors in the crash, which remains under investigation.

Sunday, July 26, 2015


                                       Saturday  July 25th 2015
I ran the Holiness of the canyon with my Besties KIM and KIM.  The JOY just wants to scream out of my chest. I meditated to Oprah and Deepak about Grace. I juiced alkaline juice in my new juicer. My angel number for the day read "Congratulations for making healthy choices which truly are answers to your prayers". I gave a google hang out class on the what,  how and why of essential oils. I am in constant awe of the lessons in EVERYTHING around me. I was sitting at my desk listening to MATT KAHN on this weeks share " EVERYTHING IS HERE TO HELP YOU",

when I was over come with the urge to lay and be in the sun. Having spent a minute or two indulging in said beloved sun as of late, I thought it wise to  NOT head to the balcony lounge. The feeling wouldn't leave me. I have been reading Michael Singer's THE SURRENDER EXPERIMENT
He talks about the voice in our head that talks incessantly. I have been super aware of the voice in my head. It would not leave. So I got up from my desk wondering if I might move rooms or get socks or what????  and saw this patch of sun on the floor. I wondered at how perfect it was just for my size. I brought my book for notes as I sprawled across it and listened. I knew to take the pic and note of this space. I took the pic amazed at how perfect. As I lay there I looked at my book case and saw my mothers scriptures. I marveled that I had been wise enough to ask her for them. I wondered if I could just open them the way I pull energy cards and have that be a love message from her.  I pulled the scriptures...I stuck my finger in and opened. First I cried just seeing her handwriting. We both litter the books we love with our notes. Then I read the first thing that popped out at me.  Alma 32:36

Matt's sharing was all about FAITH....and the EXPERIMENT I have been playing with is Michael Singers. This particular verse is a verse I know well. To so many others this will look a coincidence. To love from a missed Mother who I often wonder how she feels about the side roads I explore.

I hope you listen to Matt AND read the SURRENDER EXPERIMENT. Matt says once we know that EVERYTHING really does work out, it BUILDS our FAITH...and then we can embrace anything and everything as the PERFECT teacher and send love to it in gratitude for being our teacher.
Michael speaks of a place where we quit forcing our preference on everything and trust the Universe to deliver even MORE abundance and joy than we can imagine ourselves....just a WOWZA book for the soul. A few short sentences cannot relay the beauty of his knowing.  I encouraged you to read his THE UNTETHERED SOUL...I'll do so again. I REALLY love that this man is home grown in my beloved Gainesville. I loved visiting his Temple of the Universe. Ready to head back home.

The weeks stay filled with my transforming. My Mermaid hanging off the rear view broke her tail when they changed the windshield out. A Mermaid's tail breaking symbolizes she has made the transformation into a land creature. Could it be for me?  I was immediately struck. with the thought...and in LIKE with the way clearer view of the new windshield.

And SIMONA is HERE!!!!!

                                           With Aunti Mica.....
almost feel like this is MY grandbaby   xxooxx Josefa....she is GORGEOUS!!!