Sunday, June 9, 2013
It's SUMMER Bam!
Well here is one that will surprise a few family and friends. My dad left yesterday without telling anyone, drove to Montana and married Rose Daniels today!!! 85 years young. When I asked if he was kidding his comment was, yep, just signed the papers and now we're going to get some lunch......
Congratulations dad!! You never cease to amaze me.
CAN I JUST SAY I TOLD YOU SO TO DON J HARRIS!!!!!
Roses hands were cold and Gordon picked them up to warm them...the way he warmed them and the way SHE looked at him...doesn't matter if you're 85 or not...that kind of love still LOOKS the same! I asked Dad if they were together and her said NO. The WIN for ME! :)
My "getting out of my head and living from my heart" book this week was a re read of Robert Holden's SHIFT HAPPENS. My heart went straight to you on his blurb entitled "THERE IS NO SEPARATION"...I'm copying it and putting it in your package I am sending tomorrow. But the jest is just as Einstein taught "separation is an optical illusion". And Yasutani Roshi (spiritual teacher) taught "The fundamental delusion of humanity is to suppose that I am here and YOU are out there." Then quoting Robert "The truth is, you are not separate from anything, ever. There is no time and space between you and God. The same is true between you and your Unconditioned Self.
Separation is the great disease of mankind. It is because you believe you are separate and alien to the rest of life that you experience lack, struggle, conflict, illness, and pain. .......skipping several paragraphs.....Think about it! It is impossible to feel wholly connected to life and be depressed. It is impossible to feel pure ONENESS and feel and have anxiety. It is impossible to join unconditionally with someone and be in fear. It is impossible to be with GOD and in hell........skipping again.....
Separation does not exist, and yet feeling separate from your innate wholeness can spread quickly into your consciousness, causing you to experience yourself cut off from Heaven, nature, from humanity and from your own feelings, from your creativity, from your higher self and from hope.
I realize that Robert is talking about the separations we create with and in humanity...but it really hit home with me for YOU and ME...we are SO NOT SEPARATE. Everyday begins with a prayer for your happiness and safety and love and laughter. And each day as it progresses and more prayers are prayed by me you are almost always in them...even if its just a fleeting...wrap Sam in happiness...so you ARE WITH ME. Robert ends the book with asking that we begin each day with this prayer "Dear God, today I give up the thought of separation. Amen" This is the perfect prayer for THIS MOMMA!
He ends with this and I LOVE IT!!!
IN ME IS ALL OF HEAVEN, IN HEAVEN IS ALL OF ME.
With that said, we all agree you've been gone quite long enough... :) I so close my eyes when I am standing in the emptiness of the house and see you standing in the door way with your arms bidding me in them and you saying "Come here, come here" and then I AM WRAPPED up in your hug. I LOVE IT when you do that to me. What Seems a SIN to me is that you cannot hug or bid others there to that same place. That is part of your magic Sam. I'm eager to see how you renegotiate that one!
The weeks are always so full. I am examining that. Do I have them too full? Something about Summer! I want to PLAY. I want all the worldly, make a living cares to just go away till fall while I lay by the pool and have BBQ's with friends and just sit on the swings with people I love. Ok...and lay on the lounge and READ. So many people and things to love. I will need a thousand lifetimes. I just made myself shutter when I wrote that. I am so NOT up to a thousand lifetimes. At least not today.
Dad is in South America. Megan is working hard. She's at a funky place in learning and mastering her new responsibilities at work--as well learning how to ask for assistance. Adulthood brings us SKILLS! She went out with a kid twice this week. That brings a smile to all of our faces. Michael and Brittany are as cute as puppies. Josh stayed in Logan but is gutting it through this nasty calculus class...he and David Chester are taking it together and spending over 4 hours a day on the homework. Spencer has our house filled with friends again---HAPPY MOMMA! He is golfing most everyday with Joe Hatch. He starts work tomorrow. He's been getting out there...taken Chuni out a few times. He works out like a ban chi! He does INSANITY and then goes and lifts and then sometimes does it again! He is a good friend. I love having his sweetness around . One morning this week I woke up and was picking up the family room and he had his golf cleaning stuff left out...and my heart just exploded and tears rolled that HE IS HOME!!! It's still a HAPPY jolt sometimes that its OVER. I am working on physical separation skills :) Every time I have one of these type moments I am seized with gratitude that every one of you is so blessedly AMAZING...I can't imagine the heartache of children who have made horrible choices or hate their parents. Mostly, I feel that surety that no matter what choices any of us make....cuz we SO AREN"T DONE...we would NOT FEEL TO OR SEPARATE because of them and WE LOVE EACH OTHER. It also helps me to feel at one with the GODS and how they MUST feel when WE COME HOME.
So LOVE BUG...hug them to you with your heart of magic.....and FEEL MY HUGS from here!
Let me know what you want added to the package...I will seal and send by 2 tomorrow :)
Oh...did I tell you HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU???!!!!!!!!